trust Tuesday, April 15, 2008

TRUST:
a: assured reliance on the character, ability, strength, or truth of someone or something
b: one in which confidence is placed

For all my life my trust has been placed in different people or things. As a child trust was mostly placed in my parents - that they would provide for me, always love me and guide me in the right direction. As I grew up I began more increasingly trusting myself for most things. My character, my ability, my strength, my truth - I placed confidence in my own strength.

Now if someone were to ever ask me if I had trust in God, I didn't have to think twice - of course I did. But did I? Sure I trusted that God would provide for me and take care of me, but did I live like that was true.

No.

A little over a year ago I had lunch with a close friend and over a couple of gyros he asked me a pointed question. Who do you see as the provider for your family? You or God? I was immediately saddened, because I knew the answer deep in my heart was, me. I saw myself as the provider for my family.

It's all up to me. I am the king of my tiny kingdom. If I fall it all comes crumbling down. Thanks to that conversation I spent the next several months trying my best to stop paying lip service to my trust in God and to start placing my trust in Him. It has not always been easy. Everything in my body screams to grab control of the day-to-day, everything except the only good that is in me, and thanks to His grace and mercy I am able to daily place my trust in His character, ability, strength and truth.

I would invite you to look back at your own story and see where He has written himself into the plot and begin to let go and trust in his goodness.